Confluence by DarkandLovely


He was always known as "Just Iwase Hiroto's friend." But if you dug deeper, you'd find that he was much more than that. 



Categories: Original Fiction Characters: None
Classification: General
Genre: Erotica, Inspirational, Romance
Story Status: Active
Pairings: None
Warnings: None
Challenges: None
Series: None
Chapters: 3 Completed: No Word count: 6153 Read: 7029 Published: March 16 2015 Updated: December 21 2019

1. introduction. by DarkandLovely

2. Intro: Nakamura Tobu by DarkandLovely

3. Intro: Lee Williams by DarkandLovely

introduction. by DarkandLovely
Author's Notes:

HI GUYS! OKAY. SO I want to say ahead of time that this will NOT be worked on until ACCORDANCE is complete. However, you guys know how I roll. This will be Tobu's story ^_^ I hope you guys enjoy the teasers :) <3 



This will be dealing with Broken Marriage, Miscarriage, Abuse, Divorce, Possible Rape, etc. It's a darker story but I pray God can get me through to get it told haha. 



When the water met the earth, it brought forth seeds that grew into flowers 








Yokohama Ryusei as Nakamura Tobu (28)








Lesego Legobane as Leah "Lee" Williams (28) 





























“I want a divorce.” He froze, eyes wide. 

“How can you look at me and tell me that?” Her eyes filled with tears. Her mouth was shut. He tightened his fists. 

“The love we have… it means nothing to you?” His voice was hurt and it pained her. 

“Tobu…” He inhaled and grew closer until he had her pressed back against the wall. 

“Who put you up to this Lee?” She took a shaky breath. 

“No-Nobody. I-I just think we’re better apart.” His eyes met hers. 

“Why?” She was quiet. 

“I know you’re scared. You’re afraid to let someone in.” She turned her face and sighed. 

“I ain’t scared.” 

“Then… why are you trembling?” His voice was soft against her cheek. She swallowed tightly. 

“Tobu… just… just let me go.” His hands left the wall and slid around her waist, pulling her against him. 

“Never.” She closed her eyes and took a shaky breath. He felt so good… so right.

“You don’t have to be scared to love me Lee. I’m not going anywhere.” 

“I can’t do anything right for you. I can’t be what you need…” She bit her lip. 

“We’ve been in this thing for what five years? Not once have I been… been able to… keep a child…I’ve lost every one. I’m too cold… I bitch too much. I would rather see you with someone else.” He took her breath away when he shook her suddenly. 

“Don’t talk about yourself like that Leah.” His eyes were serious, filled with pain. 

“You’re my wife. Do you think I’m going to leave you because of what happened? We can keep trying. We can adopt. It doesn’t matter to me. I love you. I’m not leaving you. Do you understand me?” 

“You’d be happier! We don’t talk anymore Tobu! I don’t have sex with you anymore! We practically act like strangers. How can you be happy?” He shook his head against her shoulder. 

“I give you the space you… we need right now. You’re not the only one who has suffered. We lost three children Lee. It hurts me just as much as it hurts you. You think you’re the only one going through this?” Tears wet her skin. 

“I’ve been there ever step of the damn way with you. I’ve been there through the tears, the fights, the loneliness. Not once have I ever thought about leaving you. You’re hurting me deep baby…” She felt the tears of her own fall down her cheeks. 

“What… what did I do to deserve a man like you…” 

“Don’t give up on me. Don’t give up on us Lee. I know you’re tired. Lean on me when you can’t do it anymore. I’ll hold you up.” She pulled him closer and slid her fingers into his hair.

“G-Give me some time…” He swallowed and the tears in his throat stung. 

“How much time?” She brought his head up and her eyes found his. 

“A little while.” She leaned up to kiss him and he pulled her up into his arms. He gripped her butt cheeks and groaned into her mouth. Feet were moving and she breathed his breath, kissing the tears away from his cheeks. She knew what was coming. And to be honest, she wanted him. It had been months since they had last made love. Just the thought of it had brought tears to her eyes. All the while,  the fear of losing another child sat in the back of her mind. He laid her on their bed and tried to get out of his clothes hastily. She watched him pull his shirt off and yank his pants down his thighs. His briefs next came off and her breath was taken. He had such a beautiful body, the sight of him yearning for her was almost too much. He reached underneath her and pulled her closer to him by her hips. He pulled her panties down her thighs and his head disappeared underneath her dress. It had been too long. Far too long. Arching her back, she moaned softly and tightened her fingers in his thick hair. It didn’t take too much and she shuddered as she surrendered to the orgasm. How her body had missed his. Gasping, she closed her eyes and smiled. Hands slid up her waist and lifted her into his arms. She straddled him. 

“I missed you.” He whispered against her mouth. 

“I missed you too baby.” She slid fingers through his hair, his eyes much more visible. She held him close and found him ready. Slowly, slowly she began to pull him into her very soul it seemed. He gasped and groaned, gripping her hips. She pant against his neck and softly kissed the flesh. He came into her more, more. He reached up her back and unzipped her dress. Fingers slid inside to stroke her back. Her hips rolled once and he gripped her back. He pulled at the dress and she slid out of it with ease. Kissing her, he unclasped her bra and it fell to the floor. His hands stopped her softly gyrating hips. Leaning down, he pressed a soft sweet kiss to the side of her breast. 

“I’ve missed you so fucking much Lee.” She licked her lips and couldn’t help but smile. His hands softly grabbed them and she closed her eyes and moaned as he slowly licked her nipples. She moved her hips, coaxing him deeper yet. The pure pleasure he gave her was unlike anything she had ever experienced before. Tobu had a way of loving her so right that she couldn’t breathe unless he had his mouth on her, giving her air. He had a way of making her feel like she was the most beautiful woman in the world. He made her feel like she wasn’t a failure. She wrapped her arms around his neck as his lips found hers. Pressed flush against him, she took him into the stream, until the stream formed into an ocean. The fresh cold of the water rushed over them like rain and soon she couldn’t stop playing with it, the once gentle waves thrashed violently. She pressed her short nails into his back and let out the very groan that had been sitting in her belly, waiting to be released. Their hips danced, so many twists and turns it became dizzying. 

“Tobu…. Tobu…” She called and his breath answered. He held her hips still and leaned her back into the comforter. He slid his arms down to keep her pressed tightly against him and she gripped his biceps. She couldn’t breathe. She needed air. His hips met hers and the way he came into her so desperately spoke of their deprivation. He breathed life into her lungs and the groan that came into her spoke to her womb just as his hips pumping into her hungrily spoke to her spirit. She felt consumed by him. She arched her back and pushed back at him, needing him to set her entire being on fire. He gasped and pressed his face against her ribcage. 


“Fuck baby… fuck fuck… Lee… Oh God Lee…” He was close, she could feel it in the way he sobbed against her, his muscles screaming for release. And if he was ready, so was she. A great white blue wave crashed, submerging them. She felt like she was drowning in him. She cried out, his name loudly written into the very walls. He shuddered against her as he came, their breaths hard. He pressed his face against her breast and she wrapped her arms around him, holding him safe so nothing could get him. Not anymore. 


“Excuse me?” She turned to find almond shaped eyes looking at her. 


    “Would you happen to know where this place is?” She was shell shocked, her mouth dropped open. 


    “Um… Uh…” He stood over her, had to be at least 6’1”. She bet she looked like a dwarf next to him with her modest little 4’11”. But even so, he had legs for days and her eyes couldn’t help but soak up his body with a biscuit. He chuckled. 


    “Ma’am, you’re undressing me.” She blushed and cleared her throat. 


    “I am so sorry… Um… Um, w-what are you looking for again?” 


    “A place called Gogo’s. It’s a Japanese restaurant.” Ah, so he was Japanese? That made the accent he had make more sense. 


    “Gogo’s. You’re close actually. It’s straight up the street. See that light?” He didn’t turn his gaze away from her to see where she had pointed her finger. Her blush grew darker. 


    “Uh… well w-when you get there, you’ll make a left and it should be there sign and everything.” 


    “I see.” His voice was delightful, deep and much huskier than at the start of this conversation. 


    “Glad I could help.” She smiled at him. 


    “You helped in more ways than one.” He grinned. 


    “I-I should go now.” 


    “Travel safe beautiful.” She felt hot all over and smiled weakly as he winked before crossing the street. Jesus, who the hell was that? Her eyes followed him until he went around the corner and sighed, pressing her hands to her cheeks. Lord be still within her. Her phone suddenly rang and she picked it up. 




    “Hey girl, you wanna go to lunch?” It was her friend, Rae. They had been friends in college, roommates all through the four years and even had a small apartment in grad school. She was one of her best friends. 


    “Hey Rae. Sure. I just got off of work not too long ago. Where were you thinking?” 


    “Guilliani’s. I am dying for some pasta.” She laughed. 


    “Rae, didn’t you and Hiroto just have a baby? You tryna pack more weight on?” Rae sucked her teeth. 


    “Girl bye. I had to starve practically during pregnancy. A sista couldn’t eat nothin. Now that we had our little pooter poo, all I want now is some Fettuccine and some wine.” She grinned. 


    “You a mess. Fine. Guilliani’s it is.” 


    “Meet you in ten.” She hung up. 


    Crossing the street, she headed down the sidewalk and turned left. As she passed the window, she felt eyes on her and turned to find the man she’d met just a second ago, smiling at her, his eyes playful yet intense. She froze, his gaze drawing her in. She noticed a woman sitting with him and she stopped talking and turned to face her. At the sight of her, distaste grew on her face. She found her eyes and pursed her lips. Girl please. If that is your man, keep him. She glanced at him again before focusing on the sheer glass. She tried to ignore his gaze as she fixed her hair, tossing it over her shoulder. Looking herself over, she sighed. Their gaze met one last time and he was grinning. He flirtatiously lifted his eyebrows and winked enjoying the blush that came to her. She mouthed “I don’t think so.” The woman waved her hand over his face and he slowly brought his gaze away from her. Sighing, she walked away from the window and entered Guilliani’s. She found a seat near the window and placed her clutch on the table. 


    “Hey boo.” Looking up, she found Rae standing there glowing bright as the sun. 


    “Girl. Pregnancy did you good. Damn. You look amazing.” She blushed and waved her off. 


    “Nah but let’s talk about you Ms. Thing. Who told you to wear your Fuck-Me-Heels to work though? You tryna catch a man?” She laughed and rolled her eyes. 


    “I ain’t tryna catch nobody. A woman can wear what she want when she the boss.” Rae grinned. 


    “I hear that. You do it so well.” 


    “Hey, it ain’t me. All thanks to God.” Rae nodded and sat down. 


    “Amen. I agree on that one! So, how’s everything been?” 


    “Good. I didn’t have to oversee much today that’s why I left early. I just checked to see that everything was in order. Girl, you know how long it took to get my practice running? I am just now starting to get established clientele.” 


    “That’s that sayin: Don’t despise small beginnings?” 


    “I know Rae. Sometimes I just get frustrated.” Rae slid her hand across the table and gently squeezed her hand. 


    “I know sis. I got you. Take a breath. God gon work it all out.” 


    “How may I help you?” 


    “Oh. Two Fettuccine Alfredo one with broccoli and one without and two glasses of wine.” 


    “Any particular kind?” 




    “Coming up.” 


    “Girl you will never believe what happened today.” Rae leaned forward on the table. 




    “I ran into this extra fine man today and I was stuttering like Boo Boo the Fool. My tongue was gone.” Rae laughed. 


    “He was that fine?” 


    “Girl. He was six feet of pure man. I swear I wanted to climb him like Jack and the Beanstalk.” Rae spit out the complementary glass of water and laughed harder. 


    “Lee. You is crazy. You know that? Crazy.” She grinned. 


    “A girl just gotta be honest. He was foine. Not just fine. Foine.” 


    “Well you shoulda got them digits then. Shame on you letting that foine man go.” 


    “He was on his way somewhere and I was still blubbering.” 


    “You gon see him again. Watch.” She chuckled. 


    “We’ll see.” 


    “Mmhm. We’ll see.” She just didn’t know soon after, it would be so quick.























End Notes:

A/N: Let me know what you think so far! Of course by the time Accordance is finished, I may change or or scrap it depending on where I am with it :) I hope you guys like the teasers :) 



Have a blessed Sunday ehehe 

D&L <3




** Be Blessed, Be Set Free** 

Intro: Nakamura Tobu by DarkandLovely
Author's Notes:


The bright lights were first and they stung his eyes. The stench was what hit him second. 

    “Nakamura? Are you in there?” Groaning softly, he lifted up from the floor. 

    “Yeah… I’ll be out in just a minute.” Letting his eyes find the ground, he felt his stomach knot up. He’d done it again. This time was worst than the last. Lifting fingers to the sink above him, he pulled himself up on shaky legs and ignored the deathly sight he was sure had come over him. Turning on the faucet he began to wash his face, the thick coagulated vomit that once covered it struggling to go down. Once it was all off, he finally lifted his eyes to the mirror. The saving grace was that he’d leaned over the toilet in such a way that it hadn’t stained his uniform shirt. He had gotten good at that. Real good. Lifting wet hands, he sifted them through his dark strands and rinsed out his mouth. This would have to do until he got home. 

    “Nakamura, come on! I have to piss!”  He went to the door and unlocked it. Slipping hands into his pockets, he watched as the boy came into the bathroom, eager to empty his bladder. 

    “Thank God. Move..move move move.” Watching him yank his pants down, he tightened his jaw, eyes finding his empty stall. 

    “Didja hear the news?” 

    “What news?” His voice sounded bland even to him, void and empty.

    “Iwase’s got a new bitch to fuck.” 

    “Oh.” His eyes hadn’t left the stall door. They burned holes into the thick metal. 

    “It’s not just any bitch. It’s Kuribahara Emi.” 

    “Is it?” 

    “Yeah. That son of a bitch is so lucky. She’s fucking gorgeous.” He offered no reply. 

    “I don’t know how you stay his friend. I’d be jealous of him. He gets all the best pussy.” The sound of a zipper seemed to echo in the otherwise silent bathroom and the boy came to stand in front of the sink. 

    “Nakamura-” Turning, he found the bathroom empty. 


    It was like he didn’t have an identity of his own and it pissed him the fuck off. Let these bastards tell it, he was nobody. He was nothing but an insignificant blob that seemed to taint his presence. It surprised him that they even bothered to address him by his name at all. When they saw him, all they saw was ‘Iwase Hiroto’s friend’. Nothing less, nothing more. But, he was much more than that. So much more. Gripping the inside of his pockets, he grit his teeth as he drifted through the halls, pushing past the multitude of bodies. 

     These so called innocent girls were nothing but dick hungry liars. And they all wanted one in particular and thought they’d use him to get at it. They didn’t seem to understand that Hiroto was trying to live in his own truth, not that of his parents. Being the most coveted teenager in society came with a price and it was too heavy for him to carry on his own. Setting eyes up ahead on the subject of his thoughts, he tried to form his lips into a smile, one he didn’t feel was in-genuine. Iwase Hiroto, 16 years old and from one of the most influential families in Japan was his best friend. Had been since they were in preschool. But to him, he was just Hiroto-kun. He was his reason to keep coming to this damn joke of a school. His reason to keep on liv-

    “Tobu, where were you?” He smiled brightly. 

    “Were you worried?”

    “You missed lunch again.” Actually he didn’t. He’d been in an empty classroom stuffing his face, making sure his stomach was full. Full for the bathroom later. He lifted his hand to rustle his hair in a sheepish manner. 


    “Stop doing that.” Hiroto all but ordered him, a disapproving look on his face. 

    “I’ll eat later Hiroto-kun.” His friend sighed heavily and concern replaced the irritation that had consumed his face. Yes, around him, he allowed his mask to drop and the emotionless flesh he clothed himself with melted away. But he had to be careful. He couldn’t be so reckless. There was after all only one of them who could afford it. 

    “You’re growing thin Tobu. You’re starting to look sick.”

    “Nonsense.” He brushed off the statement even though he knew it was true. He’d go so far as to agree with him. He’d seen what his body looked like. Sometimes, he stared at it for hours in the mirror after showers. Where his arms had once held muscle now they resembled thin twigs, formless and fragile. His stomach still held a six pack but it looked out of place with his lanky form skinny and delicate. He could count each rib that jutted out of his skin and it reminded him of a birdcage. 

    “Promise you’ll eat when you go home Tobu.”

    “I promise.” 


    “Tobu?” Opening his eyes, he glanced down into large brown eyes. Taking a deep breath, he licked his lips and gave a small smile. 

    “Morning baby girl.” The woman lifted up to kiss him, pressing her smooth brown body against his. 

    “Mornin’ Daddy…” He nipped her bottom lip before she pulled away. 

    “You was turning and tossin in your sleep again.” She said, coming to sit on the edge of the bed. 

    “Was I?” He reached out to tangle his fingers in her hair, pulling her head back. She inhaled deeply as he came behind her and leaned down to press a kiss to her neck. 

    “Somethin botherin you?”

    “Nothing to worry about sweetheart.” 

    “Sure?” He let her hair go and wrapped arms around her. 

    “I’m sure.” She hummed as he gently squeezed her breast. 

    “You gon make me late for work.”

    “Good. I don’t want you to go anyway.”

    “Unlike you, I have to work.” He let her go and watched as she disappeared into her bathroom. Sighing, he cursed underneath his breath and lifted an arm to cover his face. That’s right. He wasn’t that kid anymore. No, he was now 28 years old and in New York on a vacation. Well, it started out as a business trip but somehow he’d stumbled upon the pretty little thing currently in the bathroom and it quickly turned into a vacation of sorts and he wasn’t complaining. He knew it had to come to an end though. He couldn’t let her get her feelings attached. Pulling the sheets away from him, he stood and slowly began to search for his clothes. She’d thrown them all over the place in her haste to get them off of him last night. His boxers were the first thing he found and he slipped them on. His pants he found a little ways away and the door opened just as he had them zipped. 

    “You leavin?” She’d emerged in a pink bra and lacy pink panties. Despite the jolt of blood that shot between his legs, he leaned down to grab his shirt. 

    “Yeah. I should go too.” She watched him button his shirt and chewed her lips, bruised and red from his kisses. 

    “You gon stop by later on?” The throbbing against his thighs said yes but his mouth said, 


    “No?” He could hear the hurt in her voice. Fuck. She’d done exactly as he’d feared. Coming to her, he lifted her face in his hands. 

    “Look, after a little while I’m not going to be what you want. I’m going to fade from your mind and you’ll move on.”

    “What does that mean?”

    “Exactly what it sounds like.” Letting her cheeks go, he sighed. 

    “We’re both grown ass people who knew what we were getting into. It wasn’t supposed to go beyond this Kay. You know that and I know that.” He slipped hands inside his pockets. 

    “You were curious about being with an Asian man for the first time and now you’ve got your curiosity fulfilled.”

    “Yeah and what about you? Finally got to fuck your first black chick?” He almost laughed in her face. She was not the first and most definitely wouldn’t be the last. Besides, his sleeping with her wasn’t based on her being a Black woman.

    “I was very clear on my intentions with you before we got into this Kayla. You know damn well it was not a race thing.”

    “You can’t just lay life changing dick on me and then leave. It’s not fair Tobu.” He pushed fingers through his hair, lifting the strands back from his eyes. 

    “Life’s not fair sweetheart. Don’t make me be an asshole this morning. Let’s just part ways okay? You got what you wanted and so did I. Alright?” She didn’t say anything as he started to walk past her but when she did speak, he grew still. 

    “Every time I try to get closer to you, you push me away. Please….just…just let yourself feel somethin real for once.” Tightening his jaw, he gripped his fingers into fists and continued his exit until he sat in his car, door slammed shut. 

    No. He couldn’t let a woman back in. He wouldn’t. The last time he’d done that she’d fucked him over. She’d played with his heart and tried to use him to get at Hiroto. He hadn’t been vocal about it but it had fucked him up for a long fucking time. He promised himself that he wouldn’t ever be vulnerable like that again with someone so undeserving. The only woman he trusted to be open with was his long time friend and sister Rae Marshall. He’d long since given up the childish crush he had on her because he knew he couldn’t ever make her happy the same way Hiroto did and that was perfectly fucking fine. She was the first person outside of Hiroto to make him feel like he was valid. Like he was a human being. Like he was cared for and appreciated. She’d stay the only one. 

    Turning the key into the ignition, he started the car and pulled out of the driveway. Reaching into the drink holder, he pulled out a cigarette and waited until he got to a red light to light it. She’d also been the first Black girl he’d ever seen in person and from then on you could say he had developed a type. A type he couldn’t find in Japan. He wasn’t a playboy or a womanizer by any means and was damn proud of that fact. With everything that had happened to Rae, he made sure to never be like the men who had treated her like shit. Too busy most times, he didn’t sleep around all that often. But when the opportunity presented itself, he put it down. End of story. Exhaling the smoke from his lungs, he groaned as he felt a headache start to form right between his eyes. He needed to eat and sleep this damn hangover off. Jumping onto the freeway, he hightailed it back to his condo, ready for a shower and the silk sheets that awaited him. 

End Notes:

A/N: Hey beauties! With Transcendence so close to being finished, I decided to add an intro to Tobu if you will! I have decided to change his visual (SADLY) only because there aren't enough pictures and gifs of Yuzu-kun in photoshoots and such that fit my visual for Tobukins. Most of them understandably so are of him skating. So I can't really use that because it doesn't fit into the story. So... *long sad sigh* while Hanyu Yuzuru will ALWAYS AND FOREVER BE MY NAKAMURA TOBU, I'm updating his visual to the handsome Yokohama Ryusei. He aesthetically fits Tobu both in appearance, body and in character.  Plus I have a lot of room to work with as far as gifs, videos, etc. 

I hope you like the intro! <3


Yokohama Ryusei as Nakamura Tobu:

Intro: Lee Williams by DarkandLovely
Author's Notes:

    Ever since she could remember, she’d always been teased. She’d always been chubby, even as a baby. Her fat once seen as cute quickly became a source of disgust and that’s when the bullying began. She’d always been called fatty cakes or chub chub fondly by her mother and even still… even now… her mother was the only one who hadn’t made her cry or feel like shit. But it was them damn aunties, uncles and naysayers that was the problem. She could feel the eyes all on her and it was starting to make her sweat. It never failed. As soon as she put on something cute there came all the staring. It was like she wasn’t allowed to be stylish or attractive. 

    She bit the inside of her cheek and pulled down the spandex shorts that stretched across her ample thighs. Today, she was not going to apologize. It was her right to look and feel beautiful. 

    “Leah Williams?” She turned to see a curvy brown skin woman gawking at her. 

    “Yeah?” She replied to the woman, taking off her sunglasses to get a better look at her. 

    “You use to go to Thomas Jefferson High right?” 

    “Yeah…” She drifted her gaze down her again. 

    “You are?”

    “Majorie James! We use to be in 1st and 5th periods together!” Twisting up her lips, she curled her hands up into fists. Ah yes. Marjorie James. How the hell could she forget? The once skinny yet pretty cheerleader that made her high school days hell. Licking her teeth, she tried to give a friendly smile but all that came out was a deep frown. 

    “Yeah I remember you.” Even her voice was icy and at the moment, she didn’t give a shit. Marjorie’s fake plastic smile faded and she cleared her throat. 

    “I know it’s probably not a welcome sight seein me again after all these years. What with how our history in high school was.”

    “You right about that.” The woman seemed to flinch and if she wasn’t reliving the memories in her head, she’d have thought it funny. Marjorie James flinching. At her. 


    “Leah to you. We wasn’t friends like that.”

    “Okay…Leah. Look…um…I um… wanted to say sorry you know. For what I did in high school.” 

    “Why apologize now? You ain’t seen me since high school and waited all this time. Girl please. You only apologizin cause we face to face again.” She sucked her teeth and onced her over one last time. 

    “Funny that you used to bully the hell out of me about bein big. And here you are with some meat on yo bones.” She slipped her glasses up over her eyes again and tried her damndest to appear confident as she walked away from her, making sure there was an extra little switch in her hips. 

    “Big bitch.” She heard her mutter underneath her breath as she huffed, walking away from her retreating form. And that there folks was why you ain’t trust a fake plastic lookin bitch. They all told lies. No matter how flat they stomach was or how perky they titties was. 

    Swallowing, she entered the small clinic, more than anxious for her appointment. Feeling each eyeball shoot into her like daggers, she clutched her purse. A friendly looking woman smiled as she approached the front desk. 

    “Here to see Dr. Syprogti?”


    “Your name?”

    “Leah Williams.”

    “Ah. Perfect. He instructed me to send you straight back the minute you came in. Follow me.” She let the eyes drift across her as she followed the woman into the frigid examination room. 

    “Take a seat please. He will be right with you.” Aquiescing, she crossed her ankles together and tried to wipe the sweat from her palms. These visits always ended up in tears and this time she had promised herself that she wouldn’t shed not one. 

    “Leah Williams?”

    “That’s me.” A stern older man came into the office and shut the door. 

    “Welcome back.” 

    “Thanks.” He sat down adjacent from her. 

    “The last time we spoke we discussed a dietary plan and a weight loss plan.” He drug his eyes down across her and she swore to God his eyes felt like needles stabbing each and every roll she possessed on her body. 

    “From what I’m seeing, not much progress has been made.” 

    “Excuse me? How the hell you know that just by looking at me?” The man didn’t answer at first, instead going to read over her chart. 

    “Being 4’11” Leah you should weight less than 145 lbs which is what you weighted last time you stood on a scale. We discussed a weight loss target of at least 20 to 25 pounds.” Syprogti at her.

    “We shall see when you get on the scale.” Sucking her teeth, she threw her purse down and stood. 

    “Let’s get this shit over with.”  Stepping on the nearby scale, she felt anger spread through her like lightening and then those three numbers came back at her, they laughed at her, taunted her. 153.0 lbs.  Syprogti tsked and began scribbling the fact that she’d gained weight in her chart. 

    “This is not good. Not good at all.” 

    “Look, I work out and I eat the best I can okay?” The man sighed and slid hands into his pockets. 

    “This is your fourth visit to my clinic Leah. You haven’t progressed not one bit. If anything, you’ve only gained more weight each and every time you’ve come in here.” Frowning, those shrewd eyes drifted across her frame once again. 

    “The facts are the facts. You are considered morbidly obese Leah. And at the rate you’re going, you will die before you reach 35. If that’s the kind of life you want then be my guest. But I am a very busy man who has more important things to do than waste my time on people who don’t want to live healthy lives.” Closing her chart folder, he frowned deeply, lips a stark white. 

    “Either you shed the excess fat and take this weight loss journey seriously or don’t and suffer the consequences.” She didn’t mean to but she winced at the ‘f’ word. Call it instinct. He got up and excused himself from the small examination room. Frozen, she couldn’t will herself to move and as hard as she tried not to, tears had welled up and fallen down her cheeks. 


    “Lee you gon break the scale!”

    “Ion know why you even getting on it! You already know you’re fat!” Gathering up the hurt, she still willed herself to stand on the scale in the girl’s locker room, hoping to see some form of improvement. Nasty laughter and chattering threatened to infiltrate her focus and she clenched her fists tight together as she waited for the numbers to come back. 

     “What a whale!” 

    “If she got rid of all that fat around her stomach, she’d actually be kinda cute.” 

    “Yo, you should see her in the cafeteria! That girl eats like nobody’s business! It’s disgusting to look at.” There. The numbers came back but they made her heart drop into the soles of her feet. 125 lbs. 

    “Oop she gained y’all! All them damn chicken wings!” The group of girls started hollering and she felt her eyes well up with tears. 

    “Face it Lee. One of yo thighs equals both of mine.” Lifting eyes upward, she saw Majorie James, head cheerleader and school slut standing there, hands on her non existent hips. 

    “Guess you gon be fat forever huh? Po thing. Move outta my damn way moo moo bitch!” She hissed, shoving her out the way. When she hit the ground, she let out a pained cry and soaked up the cruel laughter of the skinny girls around her. 

    “Y’all feel the floor shake when she fell?”

    “Bruh, ain’t nobody gon want that fat funky pussy either. She a lost cause.”

    “Y’all missed it! I caught a whiff of her ass one day after swim practice! Baby, when I tell you it smelt like somethin crawled up in her butthole and died…” The girls soon faded from view and she laid on the floor, watery eyes finding the scale. Whatever it took. She’d become skinny even if it killed her. 



    “Lee, don’t cry baby. That doctor just an insensitive asshole.” She tried to conceal the tears in her voice as she answered. 

    “Ma, it’s fine. It ain’t nothin I ain’t used to.”

    “Still. He ain’t have to be that damn harsh about it.” Licking her lips, she wiped her leaking eyes. 

    “It’s cool. I mean, bein fat ain’t the worst thing that could happen.” Her mother made a disapproving sound. 

    “Lee, you are my child and you are beautiful. No matter what society tells you.” She smiled against the phone as she wiped her eyes, grateful for her mother’s words. But even still, it didn’t do a damn thing to lessen the pain. 

    “Thanks Ma.” 

    “You welcome baby.” Sucking up her tears, she forced them down her throat and made a swift exit out of the clinic. 

    “Ma, I gotta go. I call you when I make it back into the house.”

    “Okay sweetheart. Don’t let that asshole destroy your day. Member what I told you.”

    “Yes ma’am.” Hanging up, she quickly closed herself up in her car and once inside, she felt safe again. Safe from the outside, the eyes, the whispers, the staring. It pissed her off that even after all this time, she was still affected. It still bothered her even after she’d worked so hard to build up her self esteem. But just like that, with one word, it could all come crumbling down. Glancing down at her thighs, she swallowed tightly. She remembered the 14 year old Leah Williams that drug knives, pins and scissors across her thighs and stomach, hoping that she could cut away the fat flesh that ruined her life. She remembered the 16 year old Leah Williams who thought the only way she could get male attention was if she hid behind the bleachers after games, mouth full of sweaty dick. 

    Starting the car, she pulled out of the parking lot and made her way home. She was 28 year old Leah Williams and she was gonna get dolled up and get drunk. Grind on some horny dick maybe. Sleep it off the next day and act like it never happened. She was going to be in control, no matter what. Because without control, what did she have?

End Notes:

A/N: Welcome Lee everybody! I personally love her character and hope you do too! Can't wait for Tobu to meet this bombshell! THANK YOU FOR RECOMMENDING CONFLUENCE FOR THE MONTH OF DECEMBER GUYS! I APPRECIATE AND LOVE YOU! Have a VERY MERRY CHRISTMAS everyone! God bless everyone! Please remember the reason for the season! See y'all soon! <3 


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