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Chapter 3 Two steps forward three steps back
Gavin’s' sneaker clad feet pounded the pavement, as he pushed towards his 10th mile. He normally used this time decompress and give his mind a break but as of late he had been replaying his second date with Nyla in a continuous loop. After they had eaten they walked around the balloon festival hand in hand smiling and giggling like two teenagers. She was witty and quick with a smart comment, but he could feel that there was something she was holding back. She had surprised him by renting a balloon for the two of them with some nonalcoholic champagne. He took note of that and he'd be lying if a little warning bell didn't sound but he decided it wasn't worth ruining the atmosphere of the date. She was giddy, practically skipping to the launch site and dragging his resistant ass with her.
"Nyla have you ever done this before?"
"No, that's why this is so great, we can try something new together." she looked up at him and beamed and he melted in her rays. So Gavin with his fear of heights stepped into a floating basket without the lull of alcohol, a parachute or the promise of even a sampling of the ebony beauty at his side and realized he was falling and falling hard for Nyla Rogers.
He never considered himself very romantic, truthfully he never had to be, but soaring high in the sky with Nyla tucked snuggly in the crook of his arm he felt something tugging at his heart. Nyla looked up at him at that moment and the smile slipped from his lips, when her lips parted then he lowered his strong lips to hers.
His breath caught just thinking about how amazing the kiss was and he stumbled a little.
Her mouth had parted eagerly awaiting his tongue; he dominated the kiss, stroking the caverns of her warm mouth. Nyla moaned her appreciation and entwined her hands in his hair pulling his closer molding her soft body to his hard one. She sucked his bottom lip and ground her hips into him urging his burgeoning erection. He was ready to grab handfuls of her sexy ass when the loud coughing interrupted them. He gave an annoyed glare to the pilot while she sheepishly buried her face in his chest to hide her embarrassment. They went back to her house and she invited him in ad they sat on her sofa kissing passionately, his hand was stroking her full breasts through the thin fabric of her shirt. He palmed her breasts and stroked the hardened nipple. She boldly stroked his thick cock through his shorts and soon the only sound heard was that of her deft hand unzipping his pants, her soft hands found his thick shaft and squeezed. A tear of precum escaped the eye of his cock and she used her thumb to lubricate the crown of his cock squeezing and releasing pulling more pearly drops from his slit. She broke the kiss and removed her slick hand and licked the desire off her fingertips the entire time her lust filled eyes never left his. "I want to drink from the source " and if possible his dick got harder from her statement.
She was kneeling before him as he reeled at the change in her, gone was the kitten a "tigress in her place. She pulled his shorts down Nyla eyed him like was prime rib and moaned.
"Pardon me it's been a while" with that she licked his stick from base to tip over and over like a lollipop before engulfing me into her warm wet mouth. Her hungry tongue swirled around my tip. Slowly she suctioned more of my shaft while bobbing her head frantically; her soft hand jerked the base the entire time. Then she took him in deep, the tip was down her throat and as she tightened her throat it squeezed Gavin’s cock just right.
"Fuck Nyla that feels so good. Where the hell did you" He secretly wondered if she didn't have a gag reflex but just like the rest of his thoughts that too flew out seemingly with cum flooding her waiting mouth.
As Gavin came down from my high she stood up and looked at him and covered her perfect mouth when a small squeak escaped. . (After what she had just done it was upgraded from pouty to perfect) he grabbed her hand and laid her on the couch. She seemed shy suddenly but Gavin was having none of that; Kissing her hard, his tongue stroking in her mouth relishing her taste. Gavin pulled off her T-shirt and was pleased to find two d cup mounds. Gavin was surprised to see that they were maybe two shades lighter than the rest of her body, the yellow lace barely contained her ample chest and in her excited state the swayed with ever staggered breath. Gavin unable to hold back any longer licked the hardened peak through the lace, causing her to arch into him. Taking that opportunity to take more of her breast in his mouth and suckled while pinching the other pebbled tip. My hand wandered lower, to her small waist, fingertips perused her flat stomach. Gavin slowly unzipped her shorts and pulled them and her panties down. Her scent was beckoned and I pulled Nyla so her upper body was practically sitting up in the couch and knelt between her silken legs. I kissed my way up her toned thighs to her apex and flicked my tongue out.
"MH mm that feels so good" Nyla moaned
Using his thick fingers he separated her wet sex and delved one finger into her tight box while suckling her engorged clit. Gavin alternated between swift, staccato touches to her then slowing to shoving his tongue deep when he sensed her release was close. He wanted to make her beg a little first. Her whimpers had turned into full on screams as he suddenly gripped her thighs placing them over his shoulder and started feasting. Gavin was pretty sure he would be missing a patch of hair where she grabbed him but watching her shake and tremble while she came more than made up for it.
What was Gavin doing to her? How had a kiss turned into the most amazing oral experience of her life? His light tan hands kneed her thighs as he sucked on her breast making her already sensitive pussy overflow with cream. She looked down at his silky brown hair, blue eyes staring back at her and then he attacked. The onslaught to her pussy she couldn't handle, his tongue was doing devious things and whenever he brought to the precipice he refused to take her over the edge. He wanted something in order to give her what she needed but her mind was in a fog she couldn't figure out what it was. "Oh God Gavin please, please make me cum" Nyla screamed
Oh my god everyone in her complex could probably hear her, but she couldn’t help it. Did he have a motor in his mouth; no humans tongue moved that quickly and just as quickly as the thought was formed it was forgotten in a torrent of sex induced epithets.
" Shit fuck Gavin fuck I'm coming ,ahhh " as she gushed all over his awaiting face.
Oh my God what have I just done? She screamed out Gavin's name, clutching onto him like a harlot. Shit she had to get out of here. Nyla pulled her clothes on quickly looking everywhere but at him and ran out of the house.
Gavin looked around bemused, flaccid dick out, shorts around his ankles and dream girl mortified, how this became his life. After he waited for half an hour till he figured she wanted him out of her place or she would have come back so he left. Gavin called her when I got home, figuring she needed some time but she didn't answer. Nyla didn't answer the next day or the day after that either so 3 weeks had past and Gavin hadn't received so much as a text from her.
Nyla sat in front of Gavin house trying to appear as least stalker like as possible. She definitely was out of her element. He had told her where he lived but that didn't mean he wanted her crazy ass stopping by unannounced. She had been avoiding his calls and battling anxiety attacks for the past three weeks. She was mid ponder when she first caught sight of him. Sweet Jesus was that really him, sweat dripping off his solid tan chest, she followed the bead of perspiration down his tight abs. She counted at least a six pack the bead of sweat that was her guide as it slid lower into his low slung gray gym shorts and she grew envious because she knew exactly what was below. Gavin's dick was bigger than most and deliciously thick it was work to fit her hand around him, and she creamed at the thought of having him fill her over and over. Stop! This is how you got into this mess by acting on lustful thoughts. Doing so had yet to serve her well so she needed to cool it. Why did she have to come here now and try to have a rational discussion with this man who had no shirt on with his Adonis like physique to mess with her already tattered nerves .Focus on his lower body that will calm you down in no time. There isn’t anything sexy about legs and feet but as Nyla watched his legs pump and propel him closer to her she realized her mistake." what freakin guy has hot looking legs. Isn't there anything about Gavin that she could consider a flaw. Suddenly, she felt even more foolish for being there; her insecurity reared its ugly head. "Why a handsome well to do doctor would be pining over her. He probably thought she was easy worst part was he was right. They hadn't been on three dates and he had her forgetting her husband. She had to get out of there before he saw her. She started her black Acura mdx and started pulling her car out of the parking spot, while look inning in the rear view mirror to see if could merge into the lane she caught sight of him. He stared right at her and she stared back through the mirror frozen with his penetrating glare. A loud car horn beeped angrily at her for blocking the road, she righted her car and drove off staring at his image get smaller and smaller her heart pounding the entire ride home.
Gavin knew it was her, he recognized the car from when he had picked her up. When he first noticed her he was excited to see her and anxious for an explanation for her disappearing act but instead she ran away again but this time he wasn't chasing her. He did feel an incredible pull to Nyla but he wasn't interested in a one sided relationship especially with a coward.
"So Nyla what’s new" Dr. Schroeder queried
“Well remember that gentleman I was seeing well things kind of went south after our second date"
"How do you feel about that"
"I feel pretty shitty because it was my fault and I reacted as if it were his. I'm sure he is really confused or pissed or probably both."
"Why do feel you caused him to feel this way"?
"I lead him on; I was pretty forward with him and then freaked out after it happened."
"What-is the it that happened"
"You want to know what we did specifically" and Nyla swore she saw Dr. Schroeder's lips quirk up.
"No, I don't want to know what you did specifically. I want to know why whatever you did caused you to retreat from a person you were so interested in a few weeks ago"
"I guess I exaggerated a few weeks ago."
"So how do you know you’re not overreacting now by avoiding him?"
"You don't understand I didn't see him" Nyla said quietly in a broken voice while hurriedly wiping an errant tear.
"Who didn't you see?"
"Greg"
"Who did you see?"
"Gavin" Nyla whispered
“Isn’t that what you wanted? To find a partner that you could be present with, not bringing your deceased husband into the mix."
No. That's what I thought I wanted but when it happened, I betrayed him. I feel like I cheated on my husband." Nyla said sadly
"How do you feel about that?"
"How do you think I feel about it" she spat out, her tears were openly flowing now.
"I know what I think but I want you to tell me what you think. Is there any part of you that is pleased with this discovery?" Dr.Schroeder asked looking down at her legal pad, pen in hand awaiting my response.
"Yes" Nyla whispered it pained her to say it out loud, to admit a piece of her wanted to move on and really find happiness again. Did she even deserve it, why did she get to pick up and move on?
"I'm sorry Nyla I didn't hear you"
"Yes. When I was with him I started to feel emotions I'm no longer comfortable feeling. The thing is it seemed so sudden, it took Greg years for me to feel comfortable but with Gavin it was just there. I fought it but something was there from the first day I met him"
“Is that the reason why you’re running?"
Looking up Nyla looked Dr. Schroeder in the eyes, "Marge I can't get hurt again, I know I've been in therapy for almost 2 years and I am stronger. I feel so far removed from who I was when I first walked through your door but I feel like all this that I've worked towards is hanging by a thread. I can't go through it a second time, I won't take the chance I can't risk falling back into that abyss that was my life for 18 months after they died. So I'm opting out."
"If he is not worth the risk, then I think you've made the only decision you could have."
“He is worth it, I'm not worth it" Nyla sighed
"We haven't discussed yourself worth in a while, why don't you believe your worthy of this man"
"Marge, listen he's a gorgeous, white, surgeon from a distinguished family who probably has women after him all the time. Women who don't need to go to therapy and group once a week. Women who don't run out crying after one of the best sexual experiences ever, women who are planning for a future instead of petrified by it. I'm still fighting to get back to normal why would he want to join me. Hell, I'd escape me if I could. I'm probably doing him a favor."
“You have many reasons as to why he wouldn't want to pursue a relationship but is it fair to project all of your insecurities on someone you’re only beginning to know. I think you should consider talking to him if only to explain yourself to ease your conscience" Dr. Schroeder advised.
So that's how i ended up at St. Peters waiting for Gavin. She took a chance figuring that things couldn’t get to out of hand at his workplace. She noticed him before he saw her, she sighed her contentment as she drank him in. He was signing something for a young love struck Latina nurse, Nyla instantly felt a kinship with the woman and then a twinge of something foreign invaded her senses as the nurse touched Gavin's shoulder laughing at something Gavin said. She wanted to pull the other woman’s hands off him and wondered when he became a comedian. Nyla commanded herself to stop with these jealous thoughts. Shit she was jealous, it even worse than she suspected.
Well she caught his attention because his 6'3 frame was walking towards her. Nyla readied herself for a confrontation but stood shocked when he walked right passed her down the hall and stepped into the elevator. Nyla was a little hurt but what did she expect, she had avoided all types of communication for a month. She decided to go to the cafeteria that housed a coffee shop to get some treats for group. She looked at the gift bag in her hand decided whether she should try to leave it at his office or just let sleeping dogs lie. That’s when she saw him again two people ahead of her in line.
She stepped out and waited for him to ring his iced coffee and stepped up and gave the cashier $5.00. Putting the tip in the jar she grabbed his forearm and was startled at the zing that went through her when they touched.
Did she really think it was going to be that easy a cup of coffee really, after a fucking month? He was too old for this bull shit, hell so was she. If she wasn't interested she should have just been upfront. He was not entertaining this woman any longer plus he already moved on. He had a date with Christy a sexy little accountant and guess what they were going out at night like adults. He didn't look at her he knew it was her before he saw her, that damned strawberry scent made his abs tighten with want. He remembered inhaling that scent while he clutched her hair as she sucked him off. He was not doing this here, at work, he had managed throughout his career not to become hospital fodder especially considering who his parents were and Nyla wasn't going to change that.
"What are you doing here" Gavin asked
"Getting coffee and donuts for group." Nyla answered hesitantly
" Then the line is back there" he said with a nod of his head indicating at the ever growing line he started to walk away and turned back and said "Thanks for the coffee" and strode off.
Nyla quickly got back in line still holding his gift and got to ordering. As usual group was what she needed. Sheila a fellow mom who lost her child was really going through it as it would have been her child's thirteenth birthday. Nyla invited her over for a girl’s day out on Sunday and Sheila agreed that some bonding time was needed. When she walked out of therapy the last person she expected to see was Gavin especially after the shade he had thrown her way earlier. He was probably there to give her a good tongue lashing. Gavin grabbed her hand and brought her to a dimly lit corridor that was usually used by maintenance workers, At least he brought her some place private before he served her. That was the last thought she had when his mouth came down on hers, this kiss wasn't like the others it was punishing and forceful yet, she loved it. Gavin gripped a fistful of her hair and slowed his attack. When he pulled away she swayed and both of them were breathing heavy. "I just needed to make sure it wasn't all in my head" he said his shoulders slumped in defeat, forehead resting on hers.
“You didn't imagine it and I think that's part of the reason I ran" she said softly
“I have patients right now but we still have to talk.” Noticing the bag on her hand he asked "Is it you birthday?"
“No" Nyla looked at him perplexed
"The bag" he said smiling his dimples digging him further in her heart
"Oh, it’s yours "she smiled pushing the green gift bag into his chest
Gavin brows furrowed but he took his unexpected present and opened it and started laughing.
"Thanks, I thought you forgot" as he pulled out the white lab coat and Jos. banks button down shirt.
"Nyla are you available for dinner tonight?" he said while looking into her eyes
"Yes, where can we meet" she didn't trust herself with him just yet but didn't want to ruin it by moving too fast.
"I'll pick you up, this way I'll know you got home safe “he pushed an errant coil behind her ear.
“Ok maybe that's best. I want to talk to you about what happened and some other stuff that I rather get out of the way."
"See you around 7" he said as he walked her back to the well-lit part of the ETC.
Nyla finished her latest project from the client from hell Abigail Wentworth. Wentworth Corp was looking to update its image and seem more inclusive of women and minorities which Nyla would have been all for if she felt they were genuine. The project had her working with the VP of public relations and some of what she had overheard made her wary of the company and questioning whether it was her skin color and not her portfolio why they chose her company.
She hoped that they were leaving that good ol boys club mentality and embracing a more inclusive approach to business as her presentation represented. The promo starts with a close up view of the New Wentworth building then zooms into a conference room with middle aged Latina heading a board meeting and then rewinds to a young black man working in the mail room who brings a couriered project to, a thirty something Asian male engineer that is shown at a drafting table scrutinizing plans. He passes the plans to a white woman in hard hat overseeing the finishing touches of the new Wentworth building that the Latina woman is presenting in and the message “What part of the New Wentworth Corp are you". So engrossed in her work Nyla completely forgot about her date with Gavin until she heard the knock on the door. Her head jerked up at the sound and soon the chirping doorbell followed. Looking down at her NYU T-shirt and cheer leading shorts she sighed and attempted to neaten her disheveled hair. With a sigh of resignation she opened the door to greet Gavin.
Gavin looked at Nyla slightly perplexed at her clothing choice for their date, though instead of being annoyed he found her even more beautiful in this state. Her hair was in a high ponytail and her shirt was loose but clung to her large breasts which he noticed were unrestrained, her shorts were indecently short and well-worn and when he walked in and caught a glance at her high full ass all thoughts of dinner flew out the window. He wanted to feast on Nyla all night. "Interesting outfit" he said with a bewildered look on his face.
“I know, I got caught up with work and next thing you know you’re ringing my doorbell. You look great by the way" and he did in a fitted green polo with a and dark gray slacks. He had on cologne and the combination of his masculine scent and his nearness was making hard to concentrate. "I know you’re dressed and ready to go but would you mind just hanging out here, we could order pizza or Chinese. What do ya say”? She looked up at him sweetly and he nodded his head in agreement. "It's fine really, what were you working on that had you so preoccupied"
"Well I wasn't out saving anybody's life but”
"Don’t do that; don't act like what you do isn't important. We have different occupations let’s just enjoy the differences." Gavin hated the hero worship that came with his profession because it was impossible to live up to.
"Ok. So what will it be Chinese or Pizza” she said quickly to change the subject
"Pizza."
"Anything on it I'm open whatever you want" God I hope so she thought
She went about ordering the pizza "please make yourself comfortable, take off your shoes.” She felt like telling him to take off every stitch off clothing he had on. He was so damn fine he made her mouth and nether regions water.
Gavin turned around to catch her ogling him, he gave her a cocky smile letting her know she was caught" Like what you see" he asked
"I thought I showed you how much I liked you the last time you were here." she sassed back.
Gavin's eyes clouded over with the memory of her on her knees but was startled by a chirping noise.
He looked around as Nyla smirked and chuckled at his confusion.
“It’s the doorbell"
"Where did you get a chirping doorbell?"
"Online. Where else"
He got up and pulled out his wallet but she closed her hand around his "it's my turn" with that she got the door and paid the delivery guy giving him a very generous tip.
Gavin eyed her suspiciously while she ate. “Do you normally only date girls who only eat salad or something. Oh god doesn’t tell me you have some kind of food fetish. This is the second time I caught you staring at me eating you’re going to give me a complex" she said while biting into a slice of pizza.
Gavin laughed "that's not why I’m looking. I've never met a woman who eats like a trucker but looks like a model so I'm interested in bottling it and making my millions. He said jokingly.
"Cute" she said shaking her head.
"So are we going to ignore the pink elephant in the room" he asked before taking another bite of pizza.
Nyla coughed a little in her beer as it went down the wrong pipe. She quickly covered her mouth then wiped the tears that were leaking out "Well you just wanna get right too it ha"
" Yes actually I do, I want to know what I missed in our date that could have caused it to go from phenomenal to disastrous so quickly and me not even notice it. " he stated
Nyla put her head down and stood up walking towards one f the bookshelves in the living room, she reached up and pulled out a single well-worn looking picture and walked over without sitting back down.
"Gavin, this is my husband and daughter" she said her eyes brimming with tears
"They" she started to explain but he interrupted her immediately
"Jesus Nyla what kind of game are you playing, you have a family" he said shocked and growing angry that she had flat out lied to him to entangle him in an affair. Worst yet for some reason the tall black man looked vaguely familiar to him. He got up and put the food on the table "I can't do this, I got to go" as he began putting on his loafers. He was at the door when he heard her whisper
"Their dead"
His head whipped around at that admission, and he quickly pieced together that's who she was grieving when they ran into each other at the center. He turned and walked over to her and placed his arms around her, she felt small and fragile on his embrace.
"When, when sweetie" he asked while rubbing his hand down her frozen frame.
"Three years ago, I shouldn't have done this. I'm a train wreck and your way too put together to deal with my kinda baggage. “She said pulling out of his reach
He felt the distance "don't do that, if you’re not ready to pursue this I get it, but don't put words in mouth or presume to know what I'm thinking."
"I'm not being presumptuous let’s just face facts you’re a handsome, rich, doctor why put in the effort"
He looked at her perplexed as to why she couldn't see that she was an amazingly strong, beautiful woman "All I know for sure is that I enjoy spending time with you ad I was upset when you disappeared from my life. That is enough for me right now, is it enough for you" he looked at her solemnly awaiting her response.
"It’s enough” Nyla said quietly
Gavin wanted to know what happened but didn't want to push the issue she would tell him in time.
"Let's sit," as they got situated she started to tell him about how she became a 26 year old widow. I got married at 20 years old, it seems young but I was certain Greg was it for me and for years he was. He was a good man, a good husband and a great dad. I got pregnant a little earlier than anticipated but we were overjoyed with Amber’s arrival. However, I had postpartum and she had colic not the best mix. One night Greg came home from a late night at the office, he was working so hard on the Giraadi case. "she stopped shaking and stood ringing her hands, she expelled a sigh and continued
"Amber and I had a particularly rough day and I was exhausted, I was a stay a home mom, when he got in he was so busy with the case most of the parenting fell to me, which I normally didn’t,mind but I was on day four of 3 hours a night of sleep since she woke almost every hour and I can’t fall asleep during the day. People always tell you sleep when the baby sleeps like it’s that easy. He saw how tired i had been lately and offered to keep the baby. She would wail the house down but put her in that minivan and it was if angels sang her a lullaby. He took her for a drive in the park near our house but they never came back. A group of high school kids amped after graduating were partying in the park ,drinking, drugging " she inhaled shakily "The kids decided to race since two of them received muscle cars for graduation gifts, the were racing and he was on his way home pulling off after stopping at a stop sign they hit our SUV flipped over crashing into a tree. They were only 2 blocks away, while my entire family was being wiped out I slept like a baby happy because the house was quiet. It's always quiet now “she said solemnly.
Gavin sat across from her and didn't interrupt once; it was a horrible and unnecessary tragedy. He move towards her on the couch and held her still frame, rocking her like he would a child. He did not look down but felt the moisture pierce his shirt and it seemed with every tear she sheds resolve to bring her joy grew. She was stronger than anyone he has ever met, much stronger than himself he didn't think he could overcome that kind of loss with going mad himself. He held her like that for most of the night until she slept then he reluctantly put her to bed and let himself out.